I never knew…
I never knew you stayed up all night praying down high fevers.
I didn’t know you were sometimes scared to death that I might not “turn out.” What if…
I never knew you cried out desperately to God when you were at your wit’s end with me.
I didn’t know you had teary conversations with dad into the wee hours of the morning.
I had no idea you fell into bed exhausted at night hoping for a good night’s sleep and enough strength to do it all over again tomorrow.
I never knew you offered up literally thousands of prayers on my behalf!
I didn’t know you searched scripture to meet your need in “that season” and desperately clung to those promises when I was wayward.
I never knew you had such bliss watching me open presents on Christmas morning.
I didn’t know you loved making my favorite breakfast or how much joy you got just seeing me happy.
I never knew you were so upset at the thought of me being too big to sit on your lap anymore.
I didn’t know your heart tugged when I asked you to stop doing the Easter jelly bean trail for me because I was too grown up for that.
I had no idea that a lot of times you said yes, when deep down you really really wanted to say no.
I didn’t know how much of your valuable time you invested into my life.
I never knew how much you desperately, completely, unconditionally love me. (And still do.)
I NEVER KNEW.
I never thanked you enough.
How could I?
How can one thank a woman who gave her entire self away to invest in the squishy little peanut in front of her…
…who never knew.
BUT NOW I KNOW!
I know…
…because I became a MOTHER.